My yoga teacher and this young californian metaphysics/spiritual guy that I watch his videos on youtube, they both agree that we create our own reality, that what we perceive – focus on, that is what will manifest in our lives.
however, how do we know what to perceive in order to make things turn out for the best for everyone, so that no one hates me or wants to kill me and I feel good? I want more comfort, i want to know the future, i want perfect health, i want all the world to be fed and to have clothes and to have jobs and for everyone to have ipods and plenty of free time.
really now, how can we know what to want? how can we know what will bring the best outcome? do lottery winners end up happy? usually not. look it up. do rockstars with all the women and drugs, do they not fall into pits of despair? they do.
we are like babies before the vastness of of the galaxy, of the universe, walking around looking cool in our new sunglasses, or looking fat in this t-shirt – i mean in billions of years and billions of miles and here we are spending most of the day with our mind stuck on pettiness or small thoughts.
so a baby watches mommy and she wants to be close to her, uses her baby spoon like mommy uses her mommy spoon and baby watches daddy and he pretends to drive like daddy and he takes his wooden steering wheel and he pretends to drive. and his smart parents don’t say, “oh baby, you are sooo stupid, you are not really driving” – no, these games are the way the baby grows, these games, these mimics – these build models in the baby’s mind, in her muscle memory, the foods, the smells, through them the baby learns to relate feeling safe to certain smells and certain songs.
So now we are grown up and we are still like babies in relation to the vastness of the universe, what games can we play with the upper one, with the universe, or with whatever power is lifting the sun in the morning? that is blowing the waves across the ocean?
Comes the Zohar, not a book, in the regular sense of a book, but a game manual – stories, filled with stories – games, relating how this connects to this and this goes here and that cascades from there to here and we get inside of it, try these games inside of our imagination and a baby who used a stupid wooden steering wheel now pilots an airplane and the kabbalist who drooled like a foolish idiot through pages and pages of seeming nonsensical impressions from the maker, from the the ‘grown-up’, the kabbalist acquires the qualities of the infinite.