your entire life path is predetermined, cascading as cause and consequence from above
from above, it is not determined if you are good or bad – everything you do is from above
that is not where good and bad can be found

however, how do we know what to perceive in order to make things turn out for the best for everyone, so that no one hates me or wants to kill me and I feel good? I want more comfort, i want to know the future, i want perfect health, i want all the world to be fed and to have clothes and to have jobs and for everyone to have ipods and plenty of free time.

really now, how can we know what to want? how can we know what will bring the best outcome? do lottery winners end up happy? usually not. look it up. do rockstars with all the women and drugs, do they not fall into pits of despair? they do.

we are like babies before the vastness of of the galaxy, of the universe, walking around looking cool in our new sunglasses, or looking fat in this t-shirt – i mean in billions of years and billions of miles and here we are spending most of the day with our mind stuck on pettiness or small thoughts.

so a baby watches mommy and she wants to be close to her, uses her baby spoon like mommy uses her mommy spoon and baby watches daddy and he pretends to drive like daddy and he takes his wooden steering wheel and he pretends to drive. and his smart parents don’t say, “oh baby, you are sooo stupid, you are not really driving” – no, these games are the way the baby grows, these games, these mimics – these build models in the baby’s mind, in her muscle memory, the foods, the smells, through them the baby learns to relate feeling safe to certain smells and certain songs.

So now we are grown up and we are still like babies in relation to the vastness of the universe, what games can we play with the upper one, with the universe, or with whatever power is lifting the sun in the morning? that is blowing the waves across the ocean?

Comes the Zohar, not a book, in the regular sense of a book, but a game manual – stories, filled with stories – games, relating how this connects to this and this goes here and that cascades from there to here and we get inside of it, try these games inside of our imagination and a baby who used a stupid wooden steering wheel now pilots an airplane and the kabbalist who drooled like a foolish idiot through pages and pages of seeming nonsensical impressions from the maker, from the the ‘grown-up’, the kabbalist acquires the qualities of the infinite.

Unity – feeling good trumps dying.

There are 5 additional sense – five more than what we have now, that kabbalists call keter, chochma, bina, z”a and malchut. And you perceive with them… you exit outside of yourself – you are not limited by what you can absorb, but by how you expand – the purpose, the goal outside of you and you can understand what is happening, what is operating on you in that higher dimension. To reveal the purpose of creation… what is it all for – leaving corporeal limitations, above time – space, up – down, right – left, backwards – forwards. Cause and effect are completely different.

I’m on the path, on the track. There are no enemies, only helpers.

From within something happens. If it comes from intellect, you are filling your brain, you are not developing new senses.

The stages are like a baby growing learning to perceive the world – but you need a lot of mind and a lot of emotions. You need to build inner models, inner approximations – advancing from one state to the next.

I can only laugh. And the donkey I’m riding is so buzzed on coffee and sleep deprivation right now, but by 5a.m. the song is demo’d. It’s called New Glasses. It starts beautiful and sensitive and ends still sensitive, but not after being a little crass.

final verse:

I get my infrastructure by the way of the masses
Who pardon me for saying their heads are lower than their asses
I want to thank you guys for these new glasses
It’s only by your power that I’ll get myself past this
It’s only by your power that I’ll get myself past this

Everything comes from above
Except our love
And everything depends on this